While browsing, I read a post from The Daily Post, and I was motivated and inspired to join the weekly challenge. It is my first time to enter 🙂 Let me give it a try.
Meaning
Raison d’être is a French term, meaning “the reason or justification for existence.”
Why do I write? Why do I blog? Why am I here? What on earth am I here for? WOW! These questions were walking and playing around my head for a while now.
As a beginner, I do not know why I am doing this. At first, I just want to give it a try, but it suddenly became a cry of my heart to write more. There’s like an urge in my heart to write online; Maybe somebody has in need to hear some words of encouragement. I would be glad to be of help.
Am I the only one who has a low self-esteem? The only one on earth who cry excessively for many reasons and none? Who is not confident about herself and started to feel unworthy and a nobody? Am I the only person who lives on this earth having this depression and anxiety? Am I the only one who doesn’t have self-confidence? I bet there are many.
Little bit of my background
I was a maid for four years, and it was tough to believe in myself that I can do better than cleaning. I graduated with a bachelor degree, but there are reasons why I chose this path. Do I look down on the job? Definitely not. Did I look down on my self? Yes. I had no choice. Enduring it for the sake of “working permit,” so I can stay in the country/island, Aruba.
I am an overseas worker. The reason why I left the Philippines is same as for any other Overseas Filipino Workers (OFW). It is to help my family financially. Helping them is not bad; in fact, it was awesome. There is just this pain in my heart that I wanted to do more excellent, but I could not. A deep longing whenever I am alone in my room for God’s joy and peace every day
How writing helped me
I write because I felt helpless, and I wanted my voice to be heard. I tried to encourage others who are experiencing the same thing and let them know that there is a way out.
Low-self esteem, depression, and anxiety, feeling unworthy and useless, they must end before these can destroy your heart and whole being. I was at the end of the rope, but I am grateful because God is faithful.
Whenever I write, I feel different. I am somebody. I feel smarter and confident. My voice has been heard, the cry of my heart has been perceived.
When I am weak, I find strength in writing. It is my escape. Writing is something I would never stop doing, online or offline, publish, or unpublished because this is one of the ways where I see myself as somebody.
The princess who is stronger amid any trials. The one who can smile in front of others as if there are no heartaches. I know there’s a lot of people who are very good at covering their pain through laughing and smiling; I am one of them. It is not bad at all. But when I write, I cannot hide it. What I write most of the time reflects on what I feel.
When I am weak, I find strength in writing. It is my escape. Writing is something I would never stop doing, online or offline, publish, or unpublished because this is one of the ways where I see myself as somebody.
Raison d’etre
I won’t give credit to writing alone, but to the God who speaks to me to do so. I write not only because of oneself’s expression but to inspire others and use this to reveal what God has done to me. During my years as a maid, I have learned a lot; I had rough days a lot! 🙂 But those years are just a part of the journey, God shaped me to a person I became now, he comforted me, he rescued me, he healed me, and now I have a story to share.
My name is Princess, and my raison d’etre is to write to express, inspire and give God the glory.
What’s yours? 🙂
Written: May 5, 2016
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