Love at First Post

Hello there!

“Everyone gets nervous when they write their first post”

It’s not actually my first post ever but I am still nervous. I’ve been blogging since 2015 but I didn’t really have the courage to go public. I’ve enjoyed writing about my thoughts, lessons in life, events and my travels, but at some point I got scared to tell people that I have a blog site. I shared some of my posts to closest ones when I feel like sharing it but mostly I am just there writing and hiding.

I am a Filipina, currently living in Aruba. The first few years were not that great for me. It was so difficult to be away from HOME. I got used to many friends around me when I was in Philippines. I just go to my friends’ house when I am alone and feel sad, there are people to vent out things. Living in a different place is not the same. Most of the time, even though I have relatives here, I still felt so alone. Sharing your weakness to others who aren’t open minded and understanding was a mistake, they end up judging you. Especially when they know that you grew up in a Christian family and environment. They expect you to always be strong. It’s like I am not allowed to feel weak and down. I can’t be imperfect.

They are wrong. Everyone is prone to any sadness — extreme or not. We all have our weakest point in life. And those first years living here were my worse.

Yes, I was depressed.

I had to find ways to get up and see the beauty of life. When you are depressed you don’t see good things in it. I just see the negative ones. Even my character and traits changed. I was so different. I looked down so much on myself. It wasn’t me, that is for sure. I was full of misery inside. I didn’t know how to get up and start again. It was awful.

WordPress was one of my saving graces

All of a sudden, this called blogging caught my attention.

I used WordPress.com, it’s free. It was just a try. I was down, well so down at that moment that my heart felt like it was going to break and mind was bursting with so many thoughts that I just wanted to cry. I love writing them, I have journals and notebooks. I bring them everywhere so when my inner self strikes, I just write down everything. Until one day I felt like sharing them — my thoughts, my experiences and lessons in life. Because why not? I had a feeling that I wasn’t alone. So why not share it and maybe one of the readers can relate to what I was going through and somehow inspire them.

I decided to start a blog

https://princessyhang.wordpress.com/

November 2015, I decided to start writing online. It’s just for fun. I just wanted to try. And from that day on, I got hooked on blogging. I didn’t know what niche I should chose that time so I just randomly write anything I could think of. It’s really fun. I love it.

I write to inspire not to impress. There’s nothing to be impressed about, anyways. My grammar isn’t that good but I still do it. I just simply love to share my thoughts and insights through writing.

I write to inspire not to impress.

IT HELPS ME SHOW THE REAL ME

Blogging was a great tool to express myself.

I feel like I am in another world. I can literally say the words I couldn’t burst out. I am not a writer, I don’t know the professional techniques in writing, I just simply use my heart. I pour out my heart in every post I create and I think that should be enough for now to blog creatively.

IT HELPS ME TO GET UP AGAIN

Those times I thought I couldn’t do anything good, blogging helped me to trust myself once again. Because to tell you honestly, if you are not a techy person, it is kind of difficult to customize a WordPress theme. It’s complicated. But learning about it and doing it made me think and say,

“Oh well, I am not that dumb after all”

It is something I love doing. That’s why I decided to make it official by having a self-hosted site.

My Blog Niche

It is about but not limited to self improvement and lifestyle blog. I’ll be writing about fears and doubts and how they hinder us to be someone we should be – a better person. I will share my own fears from past , present to future and help people to realize that FEAR is our greatest enemy and also a friend, I guess. We recognize it, say Hi to it, but we also do things with it. Fear will always be present, I cannot escape it. But I want to do a lot of things afraid. Are you with me?

I love arts and music so from time to time, I will be posting calligraphy quotes and verses to motivate our days, creative planning, to organize life, DIY projects and if there is a chance, to post some cover songs. (Why not? Haha)

I will be sharing my everyday life as a wife, mother, a friend, an employee, a blogger (Wow! hehe) etc.

Just an ordinary person who tries to put color in life. I hope I can add to yours by inspiring you to recognize your fears, love dearly, learn new things, and to have fun. Because the truth is life is indeed beautiful.

Life on earth is ephemeral. Do what makes you happy!