Work has been pretty normal lately. I’ve been enjoying good conversations and laughs with Megan, who is the sweetest person. We make a great team, not just at work but also in our friendship. Megan even surprised me with a small cake to celebrate my five years at the job—such a thoughtful gesture!
On a more personal note, Megan’s relationship with her boyfriend has been a bit rocky, with breakups and makeups. It’s tough to hear about how he treats her, and I’ve offered my support. Despite my opinions and advice, I understand that she has to make her own decisions. I just hope for her well-being and pray that she finds the wisdom to make the right choices.
Elena is my ride-or-die, the one who turns ordinary moments into laughter-filled memories. We’ve had our share of heart-to-heart talks, especially in the quiet moments of the store. She opened up about a friend who turned out to be more of a mirage when she needed solid ground. That hit me home.
Because, I can relate to it, putting my heart out there for friendships and relationships. But life has this funny way of teaching you that not everyone dances to the same beat. It’s a valuable lesson learned in the school of real connections.
So, in the spirit of making life a little more awesome, I decided we all needed a girls’ day out. Time to swap stories, create some epic memories and strengthen this sisterhood. Boom! July 31, I dropped a message in our shiny new Whatsapp group, including Gabriela, the youngest in our work crew. Here’s to building bonds and making life a tad more fabulous! 🎉
On the flip side, thoughts of him linger in my mind. Sometimes, I catch glimpses of Bryan, and it feels like he wants to be noticed, seeking my attention. Yet, things get a bit muddled because it seems like he’s into Megan. They share jokes, and I’ve made a habit of asking Megan as she strolls through the lobby, “Did you see him? Is he in good mood today? Is he okay, or does he seem sad or tired?” All these queries are just my attempt to gauge his well-being. Megan has unwittingly become my Bryan schedule expert. It’s amusing, really. She claims not to be interested in him, but I’ve caught her keeping an eye on him a few times.
Maybe it’s because I constantly inquire about him, appreciating his charm whenever he walks by. I’ll excitedly remark, “Look at him, am I the only one seeing how attractive he is?” Megan will shoot me a teasing stare and say, ‘Girl, get yourself together.’ Perhaps, that’s left her curious too. But honestly, I’m fine with it. If they end up together in the future, I suppose I’m okay with it.
The reality is, I can only admire him from a distance. I can’t prevent any girl or him from liking each other. Yet again, I’m not ready for that scenario. I still need to figure out how to shift my feelings away from him. What a struggle it is.
During one afternoon shift with Elena, I was taken by surprise and felt a rush of nerves when Bryan walked into the store with a query. Dang, girl, get yourself together, I muttered to myself. My heart was pounding so fast that I wondered if I should consult my doctor. Okay, Lindsey, deep breaths. You can do this.
“Do you sell adapters here?” Bryan inquired, and as he turned to look at it, he asked, “Oh, here, how much is this?” I couldn’t even find my voice. “The price is on the back of it,” Elena promptly answered.
Summoning some courage, I decided to throw in a question. “Can I ask you something?” Bryan jokingly said I couldn’t ask him. “What’s the meaning of your tattoo?” I inquired, noting it seemed to be written in a script resembling Arabic. “Stay positive,” he replied.
“Wow, that’s nice,” I responded, genuinely amazed.
After Bryan left, Elena, being her funny self, gave me a suspicious look, reminiscent of Wendy. “Girl, Lindsey Althea, what was that?” she asked, scanning me from head to toe.
“Was I too obvious?” I replied, feeling shy.
“YES, 100 percent,” she answered. “You were so shy and flirty.” We both burst into laughter. She got me there! Elena knows my craziness, but when it comes to him, I tend to be unusually shy. She noticed it all. This girl! She knows me better. I got Wendied. HAHA!
Our work shift was filled with laughter and unexpected confessions. I admitted to my friend that I’ve been secretly admiring a guy from the Front Desk. Despite the teasing look she gave me, I reassured her that it was harmless – I had no intentions of acting on it. Bryan simply makes my heart happy and brings out a youthful feeling in me. That’s where it ends. She understands that my heart seems to have a one-person limit, and I’m fully aware of it. Admiring Bryan from afar is both fun and occasionally painful because I genuinely want to care for him.
When I got home, I sat at my desk and poured my thoughts into my journal.
Surprisingly, sometimes I wish you’d come to the store just to be closer, but then there are moments when I don’t because being near you makes my heart race, and I can’t concentrate. Today, I mustered the courage to ask you a question, and your answer, ‘Stay positive,’ and your smile stuck in my head. What is wrong with me? I know this isn’t going anywhere, but I’m grateful that in those few words and encounters, I sense wisdom in you. I wonder about your experiences; you exude a positive outlook on life, yet there’s a pain I can’t fathom. Whatever you’ve been through, my prayer is that you’ll find peace in your heart. God, I believe, is the only one who can fill that void.
I might not be there to lend an ear when you need someone to talk to, but even from a distance, my hope and prayers are with you, urging that you discover strength when life gets tough. While there are times when the thought crosses my mind, wishing you’d notice me or see me as I see you, my commitment to integrity outweighs fleeting emotions, I suppose. Hence, I’ve resolved to embrace this feeling, whatever it is, and love you from afar.
As I closed my journal, my phone chimed with a message, “How are you, babe? I miss you…”
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Chapter 1: Admiring You From Afar
Chapter 3: The Dance of Hearts
Chapter 4: Heartbeats and Hidden Smiles
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