February 2016 - Princess Leah

Kahit gaano kadami ang mabuting ginawa mo sa mga tao, sa isang maliit na pagkakamali lahat yun makakalimutan. Tanging ang mali lang ang makikita. Ganun talaga.

Kahit nga totoo ka sa mga tao, marami sa kanila hindi totoo sa pakikitungo sayo. Mabait sila pag nakaharap ka pag nakatalikod na, iba na. Against na sila sayo. Ganun talaga.

May mga tao din na kahit gaano ka nagpapakita ng kabaitan sa kanila, sa di maipaliwanag na dahilan, galit sila sayo. Ayaw nila sayo kahit wala ka naman ginagawang masama sa kanila. Ganun nga siguro talaga.

Iba iba pang karumihan at dungis ang makikita sa paligid, sa mundo. Kung titignan mo ang lahat ng to, nakakapagod nakaka-asar. Nakakapanghina at nakakaloka. Sa iba dedma lang. Ganun talaga! Iisipin mo wala na talagang mabuti sa mundo. Wala na nga ba talaga?

Kahit nga sa pag-ibig. Marami ng hindi naniniwala may totoo pa rin naman. Takot na umibig ulit mga taong minsan ng nasaktan sa paniniwalang mauulit ulit ang nakaraan. Mga taong hindi na susubok magmahal dahil sa paniniwalang ang lahat ay tulad din ng iba. Walang forever…Iiwan ka din sasaktan ka din. Walang happy ending.

Ano ang tugon mo dito?

Kahit na hindi ka nila iappreciate,gumawa ka ng mabuti. Kahit ayaw nila sayo, ramdam mo, gustuhin mo nalang sila. Kahit hindi sila totoo, maging totoo ka nalang. Ganun talaga. At least, ikaw, sa sarili mo, sa puso mo. Totoo kang nagmamahal. Totoo ang pinapakita mo. Magmahal.. Love is always the answer.

Masakit oo kapag naging totoo ka sa tao pero ang balik ay maskara lang. Hindi totoo. Peke. Pero ganun talaga e! Be good anyways. Love anyways. Ang hirap diba?

We are made for love.

Kung paano ang magmahal ng tunay? Tumingin ka SA Kanya. God’s
Love is wonderful, real, amazing, unconditional, and everlasting. The more you seek Him, the more you will find him, the more you find him the more you love him. The more of Jesus in your life the more you will see the beauty of life and the more you will love the people unconditionally. You will love this life kahit na messy, puno ng gulo, crimes at kung anu ano pa.

Dahil in the midst of this all, when you know God is with you, You are peaceful. Hindi mabibili ng pera..hindi sa magandang posisyon sa buhay, hindi sa gadgets o sa mamahaling damit or gamit makukuha ang peace at happiness and joy. Puwede ka magkaron ng lahat ng ‘to. Walang masama. Pagpalain ka pa ang aking dalangin. Pero kung wala si God sa lahat ng yun. “I am nothing. I am nothing!” tugon ko. We are nothing without God.

Bakit ko ba sinasabi ito? Hindi ko rin alam. I just found myself typing and saying these words. Sa mundong ito, makikita mo lahat ng uri ng kasamaan, mga sakit at sakuna. Mga paniniwalang hindi mo alam saan ang direksyon. Mga relihiyon nagsasabi na sila ay tama. Sino nga ba talaga ang tama?

Lahat may karumihan. Lahat. Pati ako! Pero kung titingin ka kay Jesus… maganda. It is so good to gaze in His beauty, His word that corrects you and rebukes you, made not to simply hurt you but to make you a better person and be in the right path. Truth hurts. But it will set you free.

Makuha mo man ang ganda at yaman sa mundo kung wala si Kristo sa buhay mo may kulang pa rin. Tanging Sya lang pupuno sa kakulangan na meron ka. When you have Jesus, you have everything. Emptiness, he will fill it. The question is? Are you willing? It is up to you.

Wala sa akin ang sagot. Wala sa kahit kanino man. Wala sa relihiyon ko o relihiyon ng iba. Nasa Diyos. Na kay Jesus. Pray. Read His Word. Seek Him and you will find him. Do not just believe on what people say. Take time to listen to His voice. Take time to know God, to know Jesus. He is the answer.

Posted: February 20, 2016

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-Princess

Princess Leah

princessleah.co

I wanted to write something about my engagement a month ago, but I couldn’t because of a busy schedule, and at the same time, I did not know how to start. Still can’t believe? Haha 🙂

Looking back, months before I met him, I was earnestly praying to God to show me and send me the one He created just for me to be my lifetime partner. I was not desperate, but in everything, this time, I want God’s will to be done in my life.

One morning, I was praying and ended up composing a prayer song about it. One of the lines goes like, “I want to meet that man, a man who loves God more than I, who try to do the will of God. I wanna wait for that man to be with him for the rest of my life.”

This thought of meeting that kind of a man has been in my heart ever since. I will always believe that a person who loves God knows to handle any relationship with purity, love, and respect. I am one of the girls who believe in a fairy tale love story. I am okay with imperfection, though. I want someone who loves God.

Two weeks before I met him, I was crying like a baby. Honestly, I prayed to God about having someone whom I can share my thoughts, someone I can pray for and with, someone I can be silly with, someone I could be myself, exposing my flaws and yet still look at me lovely and beautiful, the way God sees everyone with unconditional love. I wanted a partner. I didn’t ask for just a boyfriend but a husband-to-be. The kind of relationship everybody would ever want to have.

God taught me to focus more on Him, seek Him, know and experience His love even more and little by little. He was preparing me to be the ‘someone I want to be with,’ Meanwhile, there is this guy who had been praying the same thing. While a man was waiting, God also molds him the way He wanted him to be so that when we are both ready, we will share the love God showered us to each other.

I looked up to God, gaze on His beauty, I chased Him, and He led me to this man unknowingly. It happened when you least expect it, huh? My words may sound cheesy and crazy, but I knew from the start, the moment I saw him, he is the one whom I would call MINE. I can even hear God whispering to my ears, “My Princess, yes, he is the one.”

We were celebrating the new year’s eve, (Yeah! I am so late, it’s February now. LOL ) I thought it’s just one of the pose he wanted for picture taking, because it’s normal for us to do silly things. He knelt his knee, looking up to me, held my right hand. I was just standing there with a bewildered look on my face. I could hear everyone screaming, and I was like,

“Okay, what’s going on?” “Is this for real?” My cousin Abegail asked.

With everyone’s whoooooosss,ahhhhhhs and waaahhhhhhs together with the fireworks, I could hardly understand what he was saying. I managed to listen to the last part. “Baby, I love you so much. You are my answered prayer.” He took the ring pop first and wore it in my finger. I loved that part, though.

I don’t mind if it was not a diamond ring or whatever, I would still say YES to whatever kind of ring it is. But thank you for it is so sparkling beautiful. He never fails to make me feel pretty and special. (Special Child? LOL)

“Will you marry me?”

How could I say No to my answered prayer? Should I stop now, right? I have to save some for my vow. I am just proud of my God, who writes our love story.

To God, be the glory.

It was New Year’s eve. Our Two Year and three-month Anniversary, January 1, 2016.

And I said YES!